So, it has been a few weeks since my last post and since my last counsellor visit.
I spoke to him about my previous post (contact me if you would like the password).
I was speaking to Jamie during the week following my last visit and told her what was said in the appointment and also what I was feeling afterwards. I told her that I felt that I wasn’t really listened to or believed and that I felt my issue was in some way minimised by HF.
I was very apprehensive to go to the next appointment owing to what I had told Jamie that week. I went and told HF how I was feeling and how what he was saying and the questions he was asking made me feel. He said that he never wanted me to feel like that and that he never meant it to come across as it did. I felt uneasy still as he denied saying or asking some of the questions he did. I had to remind him of the context and conversation he said them in.
This has made me very weary of trusting him now as I feel that he doesn’t remember stuff that I said. I was very comfortable talking with him up until this point.
I have an appointment in a couple of weeks and also a view to carrying on more counselling with him.
I am at a loss as to what to do. I don’t know whether to leave it there and see a counsellor suggested by my psychiatrist or what. Mega confused. Just wondering what you guys thought about it.
Also, the depression this last week has been kicking my ass big style and I can’t put my finger on it either. Answers on a postcard if you figure that one out. LOL.