So, it’s been about 2 weeks since I last posted and some stuff (not so important) happened.
I was talking with a friend this last week who said I was brave for doing this blog. Thanks bud, it’s a hard thing to do, but also therapeutic.
I was talking to him about what had happened to him in the past (I won’t name names or tell details – not my place) and it was good to hear that someone else understands what I am going through.
I got a letter from LB with regards to an application for a disabled students allowance. This is what he put that I suffer from ‘Recurrent depressive disorder and cyclical unstable mood that goes up an down with anxiety and other features that are part of emotionally unstable borderline personality traits’
Today (30 Aug), I went into town by myself. Big deal I hear you say. Let me tell you that it is. I hate being in crowds because of the anxiety. It was a huge deal. It’s not something I wanna repeat any time soon though. I didn’t like being among those people at all. I did what I had to and got the hell out of there.
I had to stop halfway home because I couldn’t cope with it. I just sat down and relaxed myself. Luckily, there was a bench I had all to myself in the market square. I had to move over quite a lot because of people behind me. I can’t be dealing with that as well as going out.
I made it back safe and sound minus the sit down in the square.