So, I thought I would just post a quick update about life.

Last week on Monday (Nov 21st), I had an appointment at the dumb work program thing. I couldn’t stay the whole time because my anxiety was really bad. It had been a couple of days since I stopped taking my meds because of the change in medicines.

I didn’t think I would be able to tell a difference, but apparently I can. I was sat in Wisbech bus station waiting for the bus to get the hell home. While I was waiting, there were a group of college kids at the stop. My anxiety levels started racing and going through the roof. I felt scared, REALLY SCARED and paranoid about being outside. It had been a while since it was that bad. I was glad to get home and be back indoors in relative safety.

Skip forward about a week and something similar happened. I was on the 33 from Peterborough bus station, on my way form school back home. I was on the bus and scared and anxious about not being back at home. I was feeling like I wanted to cry too. I can only think that the medicine that was left in my system has worn off.

I start the Moclobemide on Monday. Hopefully it won’t take too long to kick in and I can be back on the plateau again.